Entry Number 15

ENTRY number 15
~Luina Ashcroft~

I’ll be here, like we've always been
I’ll never trouble you if we try
Let’s compromise; there’s nothing more to it
Than just loving; you cannot keep my heart from coming back for more

Change of seasons; change of temperament
Still I’ll laugh and make you smile when you come home
From all the workload, the grades we have to uphold
I’ll struggle with you if it can keep me from coming back for more

It’s the trials ahead that makes life complete
With everyday the second counts to none
If it matters to spend less time with you
Still it won’t keep me from finding ways to come back for more

I will wait for you; in the pavements
Under rain, under stars; under the mid-day sun
Come to catch you, come to be with you
Only for a moment; it means a lot to keep me coming back for more

I am lost now; confuse me
This bitter taste of sadness, taste the loneliness
Of each night left unclosed; still will it keep me?
I’ll be smiling; hoping that today, I’ll be coming back for more

I’ll be coming back for more ~
I’ll give you all that I could be ~

I’ll be useful, just like the poem I gave to you
I’ll be singing all my tunes if it makes you feel adored
I’ll be truthful, just like those lines I had conjured
The miles apart will never keep me from coming back for more

There is only you that I can see in front of me
There I am that you’ll decide to keep
Let’s be together; let’s stay forever
All the while, I’ll be me, you’ll be you; lets keep us coming back for more

Entry Number 14

ENTRY number 14
~Luina Ashcroft~

the rage of a thunderstorm; a lonely tempest
the sound it echoes through my half full closet
there behind the door are the toys and their lore
the forgotten trophies of dreams left unforged

there I found what was once a war torn diary
unveiling a realm hidden in a sunlit prairie
an endless stretch of meadows breaks the melody
this apathetic solace in an endless raphsody

a shadowy crevasse; a gash to a scar
a silent rain rages to veil a scarlet star
like wishes lost through time and age apart
the labyrinth of endings looking for a start

swooned to these feelings of loss and dismay
only to wake up hopeful in a world of disarray
to be colorful and often at times dull and gray
a paperback novel written in pages everyday

the vividness of tomorrow; an epic struggle today
yesterday's secrets dug to a grave
the rain, the sun, the wind and the moon
witnesses to life, death and the future coming soon

pain is only but a fragment of memories
one in a billion souls living rich or in poverty
or in between; maybe in a place filled with anarchy
in this life; there can only be entropy

to know you is to figure out what went astray
and the world ceased to turn and sway
there can be no holding back in this feelings
the cruel reality will not hinder us from love

There is only a bright line in a sea of darkness
a poisonous wave filled with bitter sadness
crashing into me; when I sail towards you
the storm rages on; drenched in its black residue

A lighthouse ahead, far away from home
to turn back is to be lost to find you and your tune
be my harbor, and I'll be your ship
lets get away from this madness and take a trip

everywhere, anywhere where its just you and me
inside realms in a virtual world of make belief
or outside; I can take you to places we can hide
a place where we can count on to bleed ourselves dry

to walk where you walk, to give what you want
to see you through me; to see what is real
to hope what is done for; all that I could be
to this moment, there can only be infinity

Entry Number 12

ENTRY number 12
~Luina Ashcroft~


Dearest Prince, who always let me down
Who favored wearing masks in pursuit of a crown
Who favored the rain, the darkness and the moon upside down
Always granting me the strength not to smile but to frown

Dearest Prince who I loved from the start
Who always had guided me into following my heart
And when we find love again and again
And fail passage; it is here you drop the act and begin

Dearest Prince who loved from afar
Who bickered and whine; keeping grudge in a jar
A reminder of something for me every time we went too far
You pour it into our memories; and kept the lid ajar

Dearest Prince, for six years we had bled
We had toiled and do battle with the beast we bred
And when we were defeated were you still behind our banner
Or are you away again, to hide behind your tower

Dearest Prince I had enough; for six years we kept a lot
I will leave you if you still insist on giving up
For nineteen years we exist in this world to live
To love and not to hate; compromise and give

But love is but a silly word, the River Prince said
To much we’ve wasted; time lost and hearts bled
Still we did not have the heart thought ours to had
We loved her for nearly a decade, now isn’t that sad?

We wrought the words from the heavens we adored
We paint the tributary of a love we thought to unfold
We shared our whole hearts and minds for that matter
All for an endless pursuit of someone who had loved another

But the past is past, O River Prince
It is but six seasons in a century of dreams
There are other fragments of memories to pursue
Why stick for a past that will never come true?

O River Prince, which many had, fell in your name
Whose glory remembered only in song and your fame
Now you are but just a remnant of our fear
See now the destruction you wrought for our ship to steer

Now I will leave this solemn tower to your pleasure
And see if your hatred will break asunder
Or nourish it for our enemies to grow stronger
And leave this country we love into a state of plunder

And when I return, I hope not this place will fall not into disrepair
From all your madness, your rancor and despair
There is still much more than just a profound sense of loss
Have you no heart to yourself m’lord? Have you no heart for our song

The song which the bards sang when we are at height of power
Before your eyes fell and your heart soon after
Long before the blue dragon banner
Before the great dragon war, before all else ceased to matter

The cryptic place, the elusive grace
Of the silent halls which you once played
The vivid memories of which the likes by now we’d grew out of
The foundations of this city which you were never proud of

The majestic halls filled with grandeur
Wrought of magic spells we had forgotten to conjure
Those of what we had never sought to attain
The simplicity of wanting simple things in life to gain

And so the observer leaves you in this lonely tower
To keep away from your ambitions of power
Away from this illusion; from your shell to break cover
And carry on our life outside as a lover

Lover to someone which I swore not to fail
And promised her our long sought Holy Grail
I will learn from all our past mistakes o Prince
Do not be a hindrance, or I will force to make a mistake

I will sever the ties you have from hands which you abhor
Which so I need in hopes of holding her hand I adore
And learn to continue writing pure and true
With or without you; red, gray, yellow or blue-

Entry Number 10

ENTRY number 10
~Luina Ashcroft~


You are a beauty without trusting my eyes
The pillow I embrace in the morning and at night
Your name, the sheep I count in my head
I sleep tight, knowing that I’m not alone; you’re someone I adore

Let hope run its course
Let love be not our downfall
My heart which was once a stone
Is now rekindled; the light of the world reborn

I’ll know if you cry when it rains
I’ll be your shield, to protect you from pain
The bag that will carry your secrets to the grave
A wandering troubadour, singing songs about your grace

You augment my happiness –

Entry Number 9

ENTRY number 9
~Luina Ashcroft~


To blend the fondness with the way I cook
Is to remember how I smile at you whenever I look
With every glance at around your corner
A second stolen for my heart’s pleasure

To capture your beauty with my own eyes
A photograph of hope I cannot deny
To whisper softly your name while I spin
There is without doubt, pain I don’t want to miss

To be close is to be wild and free
Yet I doubt you’ll like what you see
Still, I can be, the best I can be
Though I may end up loosing a part of me

To love is always a risk
Yet to not love is naïve
You are so uniquely mundane
You are so real, when every moment feels like a dream

Entry Number 8

ENTRY number 8
~Luina Ashcroft~


These beasts long locked up close to mine
Has now escaped the confines of my mind
Where I fed them of what I thought I’d forget to know

And when the night breaks to ail me with confusion
And these beasts rage on as I succumb to temptation
There is only my hatred to outlive their destruction

Come forth knights, show your valor; show the might of steel
Protect what’s left of the river prince realm to steal
Slay thy enemies and teach them what its like to feel

And when all hope is lost, do not dismay
Put a smile on your face and join the fray
There are naught but many troubles left to slay

It is going to be a long day-

Heroes come, heroes go, and Letner’s sword comes forth!
Flashing bravado, flashing memories, of better days to follow!
Heroes come, heroes go; in his wake comes autumn after snow

And when we rout thy enemy, its pyrrhic victory indeed
For the many knights are lost amongst the corpses of men and steed
To return with these bitter tidings costs the realm to bleed

But this is but a battle, the war is yet to be won
Against enemies and rivals long had passed or gone
Such is the tragedy befitting to every father’s son for the throne

So ends another story; a fragment of a dream
Another verse drank from the memory stream
Though loath to give advice, the lady of the waves oblige in my demise

With her I can see what mirrors do not reveal-

Now I know the troubles that lay ahead
And now is the moment where I need your helping hand
If you see only but the short term in me; please tell me

Prove me wrong, or let’s part ways and end this song

Another blockbuster hit for this summer season
Another poem made; tailored for any occasion
To this I aim for wisdom, and not just your affection

Please stay with me, as I make my way towards my path of redemption

Entry Number 7

ENTRY number 7
~Luina Ashcroft~


It’s hard to stand up when you fall
The mantle of love is heavy for one side to carry it all
So I ask if you love me, it hurts as time goes on
I guess this wait is much painful than what I did before

I was never brave, I was never present
Until you came along; life was pleasant
But now it’s a mixture of love in a shade of red
Please don’t be too kind; push me away

It hurts to know you more-

To hear your voice on the phone
Over the airwaves, through the net; I miss its tone
I am yet to win another privilege call
To sing you my own songs, to prove that you are not alone

To learn of your smile, so charming in my eyes
I want to make you happy; to see it every time
But this distance between ourselves burns me as we go
I want to touch your hand, and know that I’ll never be alone

It hurts just to say I love you-

I know this feeling will not last forever
But I know this love of mine will find a way
To get through each day with a smile on my face
With simple things we do that makes life a little less sad

And though each night ends with uncertainty
Should we part our ways, or let this feeling be?
I just want to be honest; like you have always been
Tomorrow will be another day to embrace life and be me

With this love in my heart, you have set me free-

Entry Number 6

ENTRY number 6
~Luina Ashcroft~

I sleep now under sheets of poetry
Tracing the lines of what we really are
I rest my head under pillows of sadness
Overjoyed for a dream yet to come

The darkness of the room has yet to falter,
And the dryness of the air ceased to calm
This makeshift bed of memories wounds me
I have not shared it with someone whom I love

Endless lines echoes in my head
Whispers of a nameless song
Can’t believe I’m still hearing this sound
So I listen to its beat with awe

To had searched the ocean depths aimlessly
And found the light of hope
I return with this sweet tiding
To melt my heart as cold as stone
Time will tell if this moment is fleeting,
Or another love story to unfold...

Entry Number 5

ENTRY number 5
~Luina Ashcroft~


I don’t have riches; neither the looks of your ideal boy
I just have a knack with words, and the love I have for you
Oh please say it’s enough for you; please say you do
Can’t take my eyes of you, falling in love with you

And these simple words I’ve said mean nothing to anyone
But I say to them, its change of hearts
I was never fond of pop songs until I met you
The world became as grand like we often dream about

And while I sleep, it’s the continuity of last night’s escapade
While you seek good movies, and demand foods you often sought and crave
And when we Google those “happy meals” we’d wish it were real
Like how you are to me; how you make me feel

But alas, it’s not enough for me -

And when you scare yourself every three am before the morning light
I’d wish I’d hold you to tell you that everything is fine
These cheesy lines mean nothing like I said to almost anyone
But like I said, I’m not a fan of pop songs; just a fool who loves you very much.

Entry Number 3

ENTRY number 3
~Luina Ashcroft~

The darkness of the room has yet to falter
The lights outside makes me cry
To early to say goodnight I wonder,
As I whisper and hold on to her shadow each night

This is but a dream…
And silence had crept up on me
It mocks the weak boy that is I
Will I continue to dream than to see?
Clearly, my lack of confidence stops me to try…

This is not who I want to be…
I try to erase these thoughts with a song
I sing along the radio, tracing lines, chasing yesterday
And waking up tomorrow, hoping for the day I long
I was so much better before than today

Solitude is such a pain to bear…
I remembered the girl with those green eyes
And picture her softly, my mistress, my desire
Before I sleep, I hold on to my illusions
And raise my head to picture tomorrow…

Will it be another day like this?
Am I lost, or just careless?
Am I gone for good?
Oh no…

Entry Number 2

ENTRY number 2
~Luina Ashcroft~

You are wonderful
You are grand
Are you real, or just God’s sleight of hand?

If there’s a question
And a miracle
It’s the way that I fell in your trap

If there something you need I’ll be here waiting
Until the sky meets to start the day again

I’ll be useful
I’ll be truthful
Gloomy days; meaningless when you’re around

I’ll be here for you
Through and through
Time is testing every inch of my feelings for you

If there’s something I missed please forgive me
I am lost in words; there’s nothing left to fear

Please don’t tempt me
Don’t be leery
Love is strong and it hurts but its getting better

Time is wasted
Time is gold
Spend it with you over seasons and each passing storm

I’ll be useful
I’ll be truthful
You are wonderful
And so beautiful

Entry Number 1

ENTRY number 1
~Luina Ashcroft~

Lonely, we sleep through each night in pain
Dreaming of the love we sought to attain
And when we wake up can we still feel this way
Or will we just be heartbreaks of yesterday?

We sought each other amongst the crowd
We made ourselves strong and proud
We sang our songs to fight the pain away
Please tomorrow be there; let’s stay this way

Let’s forget our bitter mistakes in the past
And make up; time is running away fast
We can never be young, so are our feelings, love
But if we work things together we will make it forever…

And if we cry, let’s hold each other tight
Over the airwaves let’s meet: if we can’t do it right
Just a tone of your voice is enough; I hope it’s likewise
Let’s assure ourselves of tomorrow and not be our demise

Let’s bid together good morning and good night
Sweet dreams and takes care, always and it will be alright
It’s the little things we do that make life worthwhile
I hope we remember these moments to cherish for our lifetime